Hi, I'm 51 as long as i can remember I always thought about what I was going to say & predict the response before speaking...doesn't everyone do this! I was nicknamed " The pain" as a child, I always had a pain somewhere, I thought this was funny when I was told this. I was very clingy to my mother & shy, again just 1 of those things. Many many other traits, but the think before speak has me dumbfounded. I'm in late menopause & omg things are amplified to the point all of this has came to a huge crash, I've been know as a giggling, funny girl/woman, but what scared me was when talking & laughing with someone I began to noticed as soon as there back was turned, my face instantly dropped the smile/laugh...seems I've been a high functioning masking type ...its all just wow atm...any noise, smell, light sends my senses into overdrive, it's all so much right now, I'm just exhausted
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Hi Jaye,
I've found so many " doesn't everybody do that?" moments that it could be quite difficult looking at myself in a different way. Lots of overthinking and bouncing anywhere from laughter to guilt when I tried to consider how I must seem to others (because apparently everyone doesn't do that
). The difference between masking and ordinary social adaptation isn't always that clear so I expect there will be more moments to come.
Hope it gets a bit less intense for you
I've found so many " doesn't everybody do that?" moments that it could be quite difficult looking at myself in a different way. Lots of overthinking and bouncing anywhere from laughter to guilt when I tried to consider how I must seem to others (because apparently everyone doesn't do that
). The difference between masking and ordinary social adaptation isn't always that clear so I expect there will be more moments to come. Hope it gets a bit less intense for you
The human brain is amazing the way it adapts to things, I was literally arguing with myself, nah everyone does it...but decided to delve deeper into my usual ways & quirky things...oh my I can't deny that I've actually been putting on a performance all my life ...your right it is very difficult to see yourself in another way, I guess that's why everything is hitting me hard ...my body & mind are starting to rebel lol
The physical toll is surprisingly heavy, isn't it? I didn't think it could be true that people experiencing burnout could take 1-2 years getting through it. I'm starting to understand why now. I'm feeling better than I have in maybe 5 years. Acknowledging the sheer effort i'd been putting in to 'getting by' made it easier to take a step back and pace myself. Long road!
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