Issues while Unmasking

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When i initial began unmasking I found it liberating, I was able to identify areas around my personality I was never really comfortable with and apply reasoning and understanding. It made me feel like i could start to begin to fully understand myself and not berate myself for not being able to fully navigate my environment. Yet as time has gone and I realise more about myself, I'm feeling a lot more insecure and a lot more despondent about who i am. I'm extremely self aware, constantly second guessing myself and what i am thinking, it's leading to me being constantly on edge. Is this because I'm further down that unmasking path? I struggle to open up, I really need to be honest about how i feel but still feel a burden with this ASD. Has anyone else gone through the same? how have others navigated unmasking? is there any material/books anyone can recommend that might help me?
 
Hiya
I was diagnosed 10 months ago and it's been turmoil at times just as you have described. The constant self-awareness and second guessing has made me question everything I thought I was! Apparently that's all part of the process and I'm still finding out new things and many old things I hid as I grew up. Trying to let go and allow things to change (or not) is a daily effort but it's paying off. I wasn't looking for a diagnosis so it was a shock. I bought 12 textbooks on the subject straight away and tried to learn more. The Devon Price books Unmasking Autism and Unmasking for Life, plus Temple Grandin's The Autistic Brain were easily the best of the bunch.
 
Benny said:
Hiya
I was diagnosed 10 months ago and it's been turmoil at times just as you have described. The constant self-awareness and second guessing has made me question everything I thought I was! Apparently that's all part of the process and I'm still finding out new things and many old things I hid as I grew up. Trying to let go and allow things to change (or not) is a daily effort but it's paying off. I wasn't looking for a diagnosis so it was a shock. I bought 12 textbooks on the subject straight away and tried to learn more. The Devon Price books Unmasking Autism and Unmasking for Life, plus Temple Grandin's The Autistic Brain were easily the best of the bunch.
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I was diagnosed in January and as I never suspected autism, it's totally blown apart everything I thought I knew about myself. I too have read lots of books and listened to lots of podcasts. Good luck.