liberty_lee82@hotmail.co.
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Hi,
I don't know if I'm doing this right. But I'm hoping someone can offer me some insight or advice. I'm autistic and I work in retail. I never made it past 3 years in previous jobs because I wasn't diagnosed and people didn't understand why I appeared to challenge everything. Years later I realise it was becuase I was seeking clarity. I've had my current job for almost 7 years and for the most part, it's the best job I've had. I was diagnosed at 34 just as I started my new job. When I first started with this company I let them know I was autistic and they didn't seem worried by it and left me to it, which I assumed was a good thing. Cut to the present and they have recently appointed a diversity officer and are proud of having and diversity and inclusion policy. However, this coincides with them cutting our hours down so that I am left to lone trade for an hour at lunch. This causes me to feel anxious and overwhelmed, not helped by the fact that my store is in a high risk area. I spoke to my manager who has been with us for 2 years and she's understanding to a point, but doesn't feel able to challenge higher up because they say they have cut hours to save money and effectively our jobs, in the long term. Unfortunately, I don't care about that, they've saved lots of money by cutting hours across around two hundred stores, so my thoughts are; surely they can spare 8 hours to ensure I don't have to lone trade and make me feel less afraid and upset at work.
I am thoroughly miserable. I have also several other mental health diagnoses which I have made them aware of, including depression, anxiety, ocd, ptsd, agoraphobia. These all play a part in how I feel with lone trading. I have sent emails to our hr department who advised me to speak to my area manager. I do not feel able to speak to him, he is not understanding in these areas. Also, I feel unable to make that initial contact. The hr team reckon they have no power to give us extra hours, which I suggested as a reasonable adjustment, which I know is rubbish, of course they have more power than an area manager. I then spoke via email to the diversity officer who again, referred me to the area manager and said she's sorry to hear I feel rubbish. I told them I feel like they're indirectly discriminating me by expecting me to lone trade like other staff, when I'm not like other staff, and they basically ignored that. I am begging them for help and assistance and they're barely bothered. And I just don't feel at all able to speak to my area manager, and my manager is unsupportive in that regard. She doesn't want to rock the boat. I feel so rubbish that I want to leave, I feel miserable every day, and unsafe and unsupported. As well as vulnerable. Last year I asked them to do a risk assessment on me and they did and my response was that I don't want to lone trade but no one seems to have taken notice. I want them to listen to me, to take note, but I don't want them to use it all against me and push me out. Ultimately I love my work and my place of work and my wages are good. But I can't keep on feeling stressed all the time. If anyone can help, I'd be grateful.
I don't know if I'm doing this right. But I'm hoping someone can offer me some insight or advice. I'm autistic and I work in retail. I never made it past 3 years in previous jobs because I wasn't diagnosed and people didn't understand why I appeared to challenge everything. Years later I realise it was becuase I was seeking clarity. I've had my current job for almost 7 years and for the most part, it's the best job I've had. I was diagnosed at 34 just as I started my new job. When I first started with this company I let them know I was autistic and they didn't seem worried by it and left me to it, which I assumed was a good thing. Cut to the present and they have recently appointed a diversity officer and are proud of having and diversity and inclusion policy. However, this coincides with them cutting our hours down so that I am left to lone trade for an hour at lunch. This causes me to feel anxious and overwhelmed, not helped by the fact that my store is in a high risk area. I spoke to my manager who has been with us for 2 years and she's understanding to a point, but doesn't feel able to challenge higher up because they say they have cut hours to save money and effectively our jobs, in the long term. Unfortunately, I don't care about that, they've saved lots of money by cutting hours across around two hundred stores, so my thoughts are; surely they can spare 8 hours to ensure I don't have to lone trade and make me feel less afraid and upset at work.
I am thoroughly miserable. I have also several other mental health diagnoses which I have made them aware of, including depression, anxiety, ocd, ptsd, agoraphobia. These all play a part in how I feel with lone trading. I have sent emails to our hr department who advised me to speak to my area manager. I do not feel able to speak to him, he is not understanding in these areas. Also, I feel unable to make that initial contact. The hr team reckon they have no power to give us extra hours, which I suggested as a reasonable adjustment, which I know is rubbish, of course they have more power than an area manager. I then spoke via email to the diversity officer who again, referred me to the area manager and said she's sorry to hear I feel rubbish. I told them I feel like they're indirectly discriminating me by expecting me to lone trade like other staff, when I'm not like other staff, and they basically ignored that. I am begging them for help and assistance and they're barely bothered. And I just don't feel at all able to speak to my area manager, and my manager is unsupportive in that regard. She doesn't want to rock the boat. I feel so rubbish that I want to leave, I feel miserable every day, and unsafe and unsupported. As well as vulnerable. Last year I asked them to do a risk assessment on me and they did and my response was that I don't want to lone trade but no one seems to have taken notice. I want them to listen to me, to take note, but I don't want them to use it all against me and push me out. Ultimately I love my work and my place of work and my wages are good. But I can't keep on feeling stressed all the time. If anyone can help, I'd be grateful.